Remember how I leave tumblr to take care of my mental health?
Okay, so I stayed here for a few days, have some discussions about the America thing on my dash, and that night I had a break down,
Messages like this arrive:
How can you say stuff like that to a person who leaves Tumblr because she had suicidal ideas again?
Im 99% sure it was different people this time. As you can see, they mentioned the Thomas Sanders’ fandom, which honestly concerns me because I highly doubt TS is okay with messages like this:
My favorite is this:
I’m honestly thinking on deleting my blog because it’s hard, honestly, I blocked anons almost SIX or SEVEN times since I created this blog, do you honestly think its fair?
I know TS fandom wasn’t like that, and Im concerned because I dont give a fuck about anons, but there are people more sensitive than i am that will clearly be more affected by this:
DO NOT SEND HATE MESSAGES
HATE IS NEVER OKAY
Y honestamente, Tumblr used to make me happy, but right it annoys me, because daily I receive messages saying how ugly, how stupid, and how i should kill myself. I won’t obviusly, but cmon, do not say this.
Idk what this person did that made anyone think that they deserved this, but this behavior is repulsive. Nobody deserves this treatment. Thomas would be absolutely disgusted by these messages. If you think that it’s okay to tell someone to kill themself, then please unfollow me because I want nothing to do with you– you don’t know what that person is going through. I don’t want you to try to explain yourself, I just want you to unfollow me and go away, please.
If you don’t like a person for some reason, then just block them. Don’t be a cowardly, hateful asshole.
There ya have it folks. Enough of this nonsense.
Thomas and Joan are not ok with this, never say they are. These anons are just awful. I would love to believe these awful anons aren’t in our fandom, they’re just using it to say we are bad. Turning off anon is a good. Joan is totally correct. I have nothing more to add
Honestly, I think they might not be real supporters of Thomas and company. I think this might just be some fucked up people who want to abuse Yuna bc Yuna said something that they disagreed with (and I honestly believe that they probably thinkthatthey’re being funny and edgy). I don’t think that they care about Thomas; I think they just found that Yuna posts a good amount about Thomas and they’re using that to bully them. Maybe.
That said, I think the real problem here is just internet culture– being told to kill yourself happens all the time bc I think it’s just an internet way to fuck with people– like what leaving a flaming bag of shit on someone’s doorstep used to be (although in some cases–like this one maybe– I also think “kill yourself” is just internet language for “you suck” or “I disagree with you,” which is obviously fucking terrible). I think the reason that that’s become such a staple in internet language is that it is really easy to not see someone as a person on the internet. All we see are fragments that a person shared to represent themself– pictures, videos, and pieces of text– and we can try to piece all of that together, but it still won’t be a real, complete person. It’s really easy to tell a bunch of digital text, and pixels to kill itself.
I think all that can be said about this at this point is that if you are ever anonymously sent a message that says to kill yourself, then you have to try your very best to disregard it. Odds are you’re dealing with some asshole that’s laughing about it on the other end, or an unoriginal shit sniffing jerkoff that just disagrees with you– in either case, they aren’t talking to a real person, they’re talking to an incomplete, inaccurate representation of you. Delete the message, ignore them, and in time they will leave you alone.
I want to conclude on a spiteful note, but I’m going to resist the urge. @dan-yuna any messages and comments of support that you’re now seeing in your inbox or in the notes of this post are more thoughtful, and more authentic than those anonymous messages. The supportive people truly understand that there is a young human being sitting behind a computer, absorbing all of this, and that’s the the stuff that deserves your attention.
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